The star revealed she had no alternative however to proceed posting racy footage on adults-only web site OnlyFans in an effort to pay the payments – however buddies are nervous

Lauren Goodger turned one of many first TOWIE millionaires because of being inundated with picture alternatives, nightclub appearances and model offers off the again of her actuality TV fame. However final week, the star revealed she had no alternative however to proceed posting racy footage on adults-only web site OnlyFans in an effort to pay the payments.

Lauren, 39, confessed that one subscriber even supplied her £150,000 to spend the night time along with her – and admitted the proposition was “laborious to show down”. Talking on Olivia Attwood: Getting Filthy Wealthy, the mum-of-one stated, “I’ve been supplied 150 grand for the night time, that’s one other entire world. By no means. Not being flawed, it’s laborious to show down however I couldn’t. I can’t even sleep with a man in actual life.”

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However friends concern Lauren – who sometimes costs her followers £6,500 for customized content material – may spiral again right into a “darkish place” if she doesn’t stroll away from OnlyFans quickly.

“Associates actually don’t suppose that is the best path for Lauren to go down, given how laborious the previous few years have been,” a supply tells new journal. “She already has low shallowness, and so they fear that just some destructive feedback may put Lauren again right into a darkish place. However in the meanwhile she seems like that is the one possibility for her – she doesn’t have anybody else to help her financially. It’s like an dependancy – she seems like she’s fallen from a giant peak and that is her probability to make some cash.”

Since discovering fame on TOWIE again in 2010, Lauren, 39, has endured a number of private tragedies, which she believes left her with PTSD. In July 2022, her new child daughter, Lorena, handed away shortly after start. She’d damaged up from her companion, Charles Drury, on the time amid dishonest allegations, which he denied, and in 2024 the builder was cleared in court docket of assaulting Lauren on the day of their daughter’s funeral. Days earlier than Lorena’s dying, Lauren found her ex-partner of 5 years, Jake McLean, had died in a automobile crash.

Lauren stated she “survived as a result of I had no alternative”, and later opened as much as Paul C Brunson on his podcast, We Want To Discuss, about feeling “deserted” and her life “getting worse and worse”. Explaining her resolution to hitch OnlyFans, Lauren advised Olivia that she felt like she was “backed right into a nook” after work alternatives dried up in 2020.

“Manner again years in the past once I was doing extra TV work I used to be like, ‘I’m by no means doing OnlyFans, that’s not me,” she stated. “Just a few years later we went into Covid lockdown. There’s no picture shoots, there’s no filming. I had these massive payments are available in and was like, ‘I’ve to pay this off.’ So I form of obtained backed right into a nook. I used to be like, ‘I’m simply gonna should do it.’”

One in all Lauren’s buddies begged her to stop OnlyFans – however Lauren says with out it she wouldn’t be capable to help herself and her four-year-old daughter, Larose, whom she shares with Charles.

“One in all my buddies did say, ‘Lauren, please delete, you don’t must do it, you’re so significantly better than this,’” she defined. “With out OnlyFans I wouldn’t be capable to pay all my payments. I’ve my home, my automobile, my youngster so don’t decide me. I’m not doing it so I should purchase a Chanel purse. I want the cash. I’m solely doing it so I can help myself. I must stay.”

The previous Celeb Large Brother contestant beforehand revealed she was making £30,000 a month when she first began the account, however her earnings dwindled after she turned a mom.

Lauren admitted it’s not how she needs to make a residing, saying, “I wouldn’t need to sit right here and be like, ‘I completely adore it.’ Do I actually need these males to have these footage? Do I actually need to do that for a way lengthy and everybody realizing about it? And other people taking a look at me pondering, ‘Gosh, she’s a profitable, beautiful woman why she’s doing that?’ However that’s the stigma round it. I can’t inform the world it’s not what you suppose.”

In addition to coping with grief, Lauren has been focused relentlessly over her fluctuating weight through the years. She stated she stop TOWIE in 2012 as a result of she struggled to see herself subsequent to her slimmer co-stars on display.

Merciless trolls branded her “disgusting” and in 2024, Lauren stated she’d should maintain her bra on if she had intercourse, saying, “I don’t need anybody to see me like this.” Final yr, she revealed her plans to do away with her breast implants in favour of a extra ‘pure’ look.

Our supply says Lauren – who will flip 40 in September – continues to learn each destructive remark about herself. “She takes all of it to coronary heart and can then surprise in the event that they’ve obtained some extent,” explains our supply.

“She’s very insecure about her weight and about getting older. However when she will get a little bit of adoration it makes her really feel higher about herself, even when it’s from a stranger. Lauren appears at Kerry Katona and the way she’s used OnlyFans to show her life round, and she or he thinks she will do the identical. It’s unhappy, however she seems like there’s no approach out.”

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