Child Cudi is releasing a memoir titled Cudi.
The Cleveland rapper discusses a number of the lowest moments in his life, together with a near-fatal overdose whereas beneath the affect of cocaine. In Cudi: The Memoir, Mr. Rager, born Scott Mescudi, 41, goes again to an evening in his New York house by which he took loopy quantities of coke and commenced crying for hours.
“I used to be at peace with dying,” he wrote in an excerpt from his e book revealed by GQ. “‘You made nice music that folks beloved,’ I assumed. ‘However that is the tip.’”
“I couldn’t make sense of what was plaguing me,” he stated additional into the passage. “It was all taking place so quick. The primary Man on the Moon had been out for a couple of yr and I used to be on a rocket ship. Grappling with fame pushed me towards cocaine, which I solely ever did alone. I used to be drawn to it in isolation, and my time on my own was rising.”
Cudi notes that his cocaine use spiraled from small quantities to snorting “strains that had been as huge as my pinky.”
He added, “I used to be feeling shut-in and I might barely even go away my home. The coke felt like a essential countermeasure for my celeb, nevertheless it was wreaking havoc on my life, creatively and personally. I had turn into tremendous risky emotionally. My relationships had been in shambles, and I couldn’t get songs out like I wished. The anger was boiling in me.
“My rage got here from my actuality not aligning with my dream,” he confessed. “I assumed being set financially was going to avoid wasting me and make every thing all proper. I assumed being Child Cudi would remodel my life in all the most effective methods. It didn’t.”
It’s been a tricky 2025 for Child Cudi. Earlier this yr, the rapper took the stand to testify towards Sean “P. Diddy” Combs throughout his intercourse trafficking trial. Cudi defined that whereas he was courting singer Cassie, whose claims of sexual abuse towards the tremendous producer launched the federal case towards Combs, somebody (allegedly achieved by Diddy or somebody in his crew) set Cudi’s automotive on fireplace.
Many, together with rapper Younger Thug, referred to as Cudi a rat for taking the stand towards Diddy.
Cudi not too long ago launched “Neverland” and “Grave,” singles from his new album Free, which is about to be launched Aug. 22.
