Kelsey Parker has been via extra heartache in her 35 years than most in a complete lifetime – however as she revealed lately, she is seeking to the long run with hope

Kelsey Parker has revealed her plans to strive for one more child this yr – as she seemed again on a heartbreakingly tough 2025, after her son, Phoenix, was stillborn.

Kelsey, the widow of The Wished singer Tom Parker, opened up poignantly on her podcast with Georgia Jones, Mum’s The Phrase! on Sunday about her ‘actually actually robust expertise’. The 35-year-old revealed that each one she hopes for is to have a ‘higher yr’ – and stated she is going to proceed to try to get pregnant.

She defined, ‘I simply need a greater yr, it was actually actually robust, it was s**t. I believe to proceed the trail of, ‘is there a child this yr for me’, I may have one this yr, which is thrilling, additionally I believe elevating consciousness and hold doing my charity work.’

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Kelsey shares two youngsters – Aurelia, 5, and son Bodhi, 4 – with Tom, who tragically died at simply 33 from a uncommon and aggressive mind tumor (a glioblastoma) in 2022.

She discovered love once more with tree surgeon Will Lindsay, however suffered extra heartache final June, when her first baby with Will, was stillborn.

Kelsey admitted that she wanted ‘house to breathe’ and defined that generally, she felt like she had the burden of the ‘entire world ‘ on her shoulders.

In a video, she stated: ‘Hello everybody, how are you all? I really feel like I have been just a little bit quiet, however you understand what, that is okay. It is alright to not be okay on a regular basis.

She added: ‘We stay on this world the place everybody’s simply attempting to seem like they’ve all bought it found out. Power means smiling for the whole lot, generally power means being nonetheless – it means saying, I simply want quiet for just a little bit.

‘Generally I simply want calm, I simply want house to breathe, to let my ideas settle, to seek out myself once more as a result of life would not cease and for me, it by no means actually has.

‘I’ve actually had the youngsters and raised them, and I’ve needed to present up each single day – generally I wrestle.

‘Generally I actually really feel like I am holding the entire world with my naked fingers, but it surely’s the one factor I’ve ever recognized tips on how to do.

‘It is pushing ahead, it is protecting on going even when it is exhausting, even when I’m drained, as a result of my infants are watching me, they’re studying from me, they’re my cause, my peace and my energy. I am not okay, however I haven’t got to be. None of us do.’

She added movingly: ‘What issues is that I hold shifting, hold loving, hold believing that higher days are coming. And they’re, they have to be.’

On Christmas Eve, Kelsey shared on social media that she had added her son, who she named Phoenix, to her late husband’s memorial bench.

She shared a photograph of the brand new plaque she had added to the bench, which reads: ‘I stroll in direction of my future with ease. Phoenix Parker-Lindsay.’

She then wrote: ‘At present we added our stunning child boy Phoenix to the bench with Tom. It has at all times stayed with me that Will was taking care of Tom’s youngsters right here, and now Tom is with Phoenix, taking care of him for Will.

‘A medium as soon as informed me Tom had Phoenix in his arms, and was caring for Phoenix. Whether or not you consider in that or not would not matter… what issues is the peace it brings.

‘What provides me peace is realizing my angel boys are collectively. Taken far too quickly from us, however by no means really gone. I really feel them guiding us via life, surrounding us with love in methods we will not at all times see. I miss you each greater than phrases can ever say. All the time liked. All the time remembered.’

Revealing her being pregnant final January in an unique interview with OK!, Kelsey stated that Tom usually provides her ‘indicators’ at house.

She added, “Will and I are on the identical web page with spirituality. I truthfully suppose Tom should have introduced Will to me. I wasn’t actively relationship or on the apps, then Will appeared. I really feel Tom’s presence. I do really feel Tom guides me.”

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