“The Bachelor” star Madi Prewett hasn’t spoken a lot about her time filming season 24 of the hit actuality courting present with pilot Peter Weber.

Nevertheless, that is all altering in the present day.

Throughout a latest podcast look, Madi Prewett, 29, opened up about her expertise on the ABC collection, which she described as “traumatizing.”

Talking with Matt and Abby Howard on their present, “Unplanned Podcast,” Prewett, who’s now married to Grant Troutt, a pastor in Texas, stated filming season 24 of the fact courting competitors present with Weber was “traumatizing,” later explaining she misplaced “20 kilos” throughout her time away.

Prewett additionally mirrored on the tense dialog she had with Weber’s mom through the “After the Remaining Rose” particular, the place the latter voiced her displeasure with Prewett being together with her son.

Throughout the episode, Matt requested the fact star how she remained calm in that second, to which Prewett replied, “I can not even keep in mind what aired and what [didn’t].”

“Y’all, I don’t even know if I watched my season all over, I’ll be very sincere,” she went on. “I very a lot eliminated myself from all issues ‘Bachelor.’ Even to this present day, I actually don’t speak about it a ton.”

In an interview with PEOPLE, Prewett revealed that being on “The Bachelor” in the end examined her in some ways. “I assumed that power was not being weak or susceptible,” she stated. “However I realized that it wasn’t at all times about placing on a courageous face.”

Later, Prewett recalled feeling “attacked” by Weber’s mom through the “Remaining Rose” particular, including, “I felt like that second was totally robbed from me, and I finally locked myself in a rest room and cried for hours.”

When Prewett and Weber left the particular, the pair believed there might need been an opportunity for his or her relationship to develop. Nevertheless, Prewett stated that she “realized quickly after the finale that issues weren’t meant to be.”

In line with Prewett, she and Weber disagreed on “values and beliefs,” and forcing a relationship didn’t make sense for them. She defined that their break up was a mutual determination, and guaranteed followers that they ended issues with “a lot love and respect for one another.”

Prewett’s revelation on the “Unplanned Podcast” shouldn’t be the first time the mom of 1 has shared deeply private tales about her previous with the general public. On her personal podcast, “Keep True,” Prewett just lately mentioned leaving faith for greater than a yr when she grew to become the topic of church gossip.

After studying members of her congregation had been chatting about her, Prewett instructed visitor Lisa Harper that she pulled away from God for “a couple of yr.” Throughout that point, Prewett would take heed to sermons; nonetheless, she wasn’t participating together with her group.

That each one modified for Prewett, nonetheless, after she had a shifting expertise with God. “I have been damage by folks of God, however I’ve additionally been healed and freed by folks of God by the spirit of God,'” she stated.

In a separate podcast episode, Prewett additionally touched on her years of “enslavement” to pornography and “sexual sin.”

In line with her, after discovering pornographic movies on the age of 13 with a buddy, m-sturbation grew to become an everyday motion for her that took over her life, main her to query the whole lot about herself, together with her “identification.”